- I just noticed that I'm tired of trying to impress those around me. At times I do care too much about what people think of me in the sense that I want to impress them...mostly with the way I look on the outside. On the other hand, I am happy to say I don't care what people think at times in the sense that I won't do something in particular just to fit in--I proudly stick to my beliefs w/o conforming to those around me. For some odd reason I make myself believe that I have to try EXTRA hard in order to stand out and impress others. But reaally, I should not go OUT OF MY WAY to impress others...it should come naturally. If others aren't naturally impressed by who I am when I'm just chillin', then they're not worth the extra effort right? Or atleast that's what I want to make myself believe.

- Sometimes I just wish that I would "Just Do It" to just friggen do what I feel without giving it a second thought...especially if that second thought involves me chickening out from taking a risk.

- Ofcourse I want to stand out of the crowd, but then again sometimes I really wish I didn't care. Another reason I want to make sure I stand out of a crowd is because I have my insecurities, self-doubt, yet an ambition towards the goal of looking a certain way that I find will help me stand out. Now don't get the wrong idea, I don't dress in a way that is "not me" just to impress...I put the extra effort in dressing as appealing as I can in a style that I like and feel comfortable in.

- Yeah yeah yeaaaah, I don't this game...dealin' with temporary affection -.-

- Is it bad to want CRED sometimes...I think this just goes back to wanting attention -.-

- At times I do think I have a much more important purpose in my life right now...and that's why things are happening the way they are. I feel the importance I play in peoples' lives as a friend, company, or someone to talk to who is more of a 3rd party with her own opinion of it all. Maybe I won't be a gf, or not a good friend when I am a gf. Bt then again...I AM DETERMINED to stay the same and stick with the promise I made to myself about priorites and keeping in mind how it felt to be on the outside looking in.

- It's not wrong to sort of dislike something about people who you are close to right? No one is perfect..perfectly likeable and perfectly able to like THE WHOLE PERSON.

- I daydream a lot, thinkiong of the endless possibilites or outcomes of certain situations :\

- I am looking forward to senior year! Let's hope it doesn't let me down lool.

- Why can't I just LET THE FCK GO! jeez, Clearly nothing will ever come out of this, and you would think that I would have realised this aaaages ago--literally. I don't think this "holding onto" you is a sign that there is hope. I KEEP SAYING that I will give up and let go, but I'm really sorry to say that there is that odd time, moment or THING that just triggers your name and face into my mind. But who even knows why? Cuz damn I haven't even seen you in the longest time (and I doubt I will any time soon due to your lack of effort to even say hi). False high expectations of "this time being different" annd "it's okay, I'm okay with how this is going..this is good!". Gaaah.

- If I don't believe in myself, no one else will. Ohh great. I'm "on anf off" with a thing called BELIEF.

- I'm "on and off" with a thing called jealousy and "getting over it".

- The simplest "hi" or "thank you" or SMILE, makes all the difference. Throw one in once in a while, would'ya?

- I don't like pity, because it often leads to me feeling guilty that you felt the need to help out. Honestly, it makes me feel worse, becasue I tend to blame myself.

- I like/want the wrong things at the wrong time.

- I don't feel like talking. I feel like blogging.