Gemini: When you wish upon a star, you never know what could happen. Keep your hopes alive...

OMFG i wish you could see it...my brother called us randomly and told us to look outside out window...OHH EM GEEE theres a rainbow and we have one of the most BEAUTIFULLL views of it...it's so clear in our area that you could see the WHOLE rainbow ! and when i looked closely i noticed that there were TWOOO rainbows, one around another (: aah its soo beautiful..ofcourse, tried to capture pictures of it but it's not the same as actually seeing it...the best part about rainy days is the chance to see a sight like this in the end (:

current state: in awe & yea i realize that my post makes me seem like a little kid xD

[p.s i juss edited the the contrasted and light of the picture so you can see the 2 rainbows (:
- from my brother's room, we were able to see the WHOLE rainbow...but the screen on his window stopped us from taking the picture there..so we went outside, and unfortunately it was much hard to capture the whole thing]

like eff !.....aaaaah i swear im gunna go insaaane ! i listened to you, i didn't respond back..tried not to add attitude to it..but it was effin hard !..i hate when you make it seem that EVERY EFFIN thing we doo is like one of the deadliest sins in the world ! i hate it ! right now im not saying a word..i walked away w/o saying anything..BUT DAMN i felt like screaming my head off !...so many things needed a response and i juss said it to myself becuz i dont wanna get into more shit...but OMFG i feel like screaming..kyea, i get it..you got it hard..and that you guys are doing this all for us...and HOW HARD YOUU GUYS WORK..but helo0oo0 you think life's not tough on us either?!..im sorry but like honestly please DO NOT make it seem like we got it THAT easy..like right now im sooo effin stressed TRYING to be perfect and doing my effin best at school and the assignments i have...I TRYING SO HARD like you dont even know ! theres so many times i just wanna get away, yell until my voice goes out, burn all my work and juss go to sleep. i hate having to resort to sleeping as my option but sleeping is when nothing can bother you and when you wake up you just have to deal w/ more shit. im honestly not in the mood to get up in the morning. and for the rest of you, plz dont think i got it so easy..cuz im prolly more self-conscience than you think..and get so stressed it makes me go insane ! i try to do all these things in order to get it over and done with ...so i can relax and do things that would benefit me, BUT NO everything's juss so damn difficult.

current state: aah just juss can't take it.

this quote has been runnin' through my mind like 24/7 for the past couple days...yesh, i know it's a pretty well-known saying but i juss start to really believe in it now ^o), i even catch myself saying out loud during parts of tha day ;p today i went to wonderland with some of the choir memebers along with some classes and the instrumental band. we only spent about 3-4 hrs there and we had to pay $32 if we didn't have a season pass >.< ! main point..got really mad that we had to leave early cuz we didn't think it was worth the money (N)....THOUGH it was better than being in class (Y)....so after that i was kinda bummed till afterwards. let's juss say i'm really liking where we're at and today revealed sides of eachother that i never thought existed. some prolonged questions were answered and more trust and honesty built ! i'm really glad we hung out and really hope we juss keep getting closer ♥

current state: pretty darn content ;D

no offense..i love you and all but...
don't you hate competition between us ? it's not juss cuz i lose most of the time but..
wait-- never mind..to be honest, YEAH i do get sick of losing alot of the times and feeling so stupid how i have to try soo hard and FAIL..and you make it seem so effortless and succeed ! =[..soo i guess all i can doo is keep trying ?! tho i'm losing the drive to do that..i have to or nothing else will change.

current state: mixed emotions

sometimes i think to myself..HOW AWESOME would it be to see what happens to me in the future..
but then again...
"If you take away the mystery, you take away the hope" and right now i encountered something very suspicious and mysterious that came randomly in my day..and i don't know what to expect to happen afterwards..but all i know is "everything happens for a reason" and that if i try to control the future and outcome of this..I'll juss be messing it up. "those who see the future have no future"
p.s - lool the title quote and the last quote are both from the trailer of a movie i juss saw on tv :P

Woodbine Music Festival Day - see what you guys do to me?....you're prolly thinking WHAT THE EFF is she saying?!k well i had a sucky beginning to my week..thinking "juss my luck *-)" but having you guys there to talk to and hang out with i'm thinking "YEA, IT IS MY LUCK!..to have these loving ppl i call friends (:" so i don't know how you guys do it..whether you can tell i'm having an OFF day or not it seems like you guys have a 6th sense or just act the way you do juss cuz THAT'S WHO YOU ARE and that's how we act with eachother (:
current state: i love you guys and i hope you're reading this and know who you are ♥